So, I have survived to see another weekend.

2 weeks from now, all will be perfect.

Wow, almost a year since my last update...........I need to get a life.

Speaking of which, I have news! Oh boy....it's big, people. I am in love. (I know, so cliche). I have been dating a wonderful guy for a little over a month and I swear that I am in a love bubble or something. I have become one of those people that I make fun of who are always smiling and talking about their significant other and doing and saying cute things. It's so sweet it's almost sickening. Ha!

But, I wouldn't change a thing about it

Anyway, now comes the hard part: telling people.........gasp!

I apologize for how long this post is going to be, but a lot has gone on and I need to vent and process it a bit.

1. My history and government classes needed to turn in a research paper for me. I got them, and when I was reading one of the government papers, I had red flags pop up in my head that it might be plagerized. So I typed a section into a plagiarism checker. Yeah, the student copied the entire paper from a website that has papers for people to copy instead of writing it themselves. I was heartbroken. It's not like the student is stupid and had no other options, he just wanted to be lazy and wait until 11:30 the night before. Why would someone, who needs to pass my class to graduate, cheat on the largest assignment in the class knowing that if he was caught he would not be able to graduate? So he will not graduate. And it just kills me.

2. This past Friday was the Senior Chapel. Every year, the seniors create a fun slideshow and talk to the junior high and high school students about lessons they've learned and things like that. They also talk to each one of the teachers and say how that teacher influenced them or share a fun memory from a class or something. The tone this year was a little different because the school is closing. They did such a good job of sharing the importance of perseverance and that strength will come to the other students as they try to adapt to a new school. But the talks to the teachers were just heart-renching. (Preface: This senior class was such a huge part of my teaching. I loved every single one of them and could not have asked for a better class to start off with). 3 of my speech and government students came up to speak to me. The first 2 talked about that they learned the most they'd ever learned in school in my class. They said that they loved how fun I tried to make government and that now they care about what is going on in American government. So, I start to tear up a bit, but I'm not crying yet. Then another one of my speech and government students (who was the same student in my previous post) talks about how he would not have cared about graduating if it hadn't been for me because I gave him the encouragement to go to college even though he struggles with classes. He said things like I'm his favorite teacher ever and that he wishes that he wasn't graduating so he could be in more of my classes. I just lost it. Even as I'm remembering and writing this, I'm crying. This student is truly one of my favorites and I wish that I had taught him more than one year. So, my turn was over, and as the seniors continue to go from teacher to teacher, it just makes the whole school closing a final thing in my head. I don't want to believe it. I don't want to go anywhere else. I want to stay here. I will miss everything about this school.

3. I have a job for the summer, which I am truly thankful to God for providing. However, I don't have a job for next school year. I had applied at Lee's Summit Christian because quite a few of our students are going there, especially of the junior class (which was the other class I taught quite a bit), and so I was praying that God would allow me to get a position there so I can help the juniors as they are in a new and very intellectual environment. Today, I got a rejection letter in the mail from Lee's Summit Christian. I don't know what to do. I'm so mad at God. WHY THE HELL DID THIS HAVE TO HAPPEN???? Was Englewood not doing the service that He would want us to do? I don't want to teach my seminar girls about God, I don't want to go to church, I don't want to read my Bible......I just want to know why.......

4. Graduation is Monday.......I know I won't make it through. Don't make me say goodbye to all these people that I've come to love.